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nostalgia [23 Feb 2013|05:07pm]
after spending the last few hours reading old entries from my time in Greece, I've come to realise the value of this journal. thank you, livejournal. <3
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[05 May 2010|07:35pm]
I never thought I could get so excited about a new bed! :oD
It's sooo nice
5 muddy rhinos - play in the slop.

still alive, just not updating [06 Nov 2009|10:30pm]
the title says it all. I hit and passed my 26th birthday and my present to myself was losing my crappy razr and getting a new phone altogether.
Winter has come so things are dying down, and I thought I had gotten a raise but it was a simple clerical error, which sucks because it got my hopes up and then almost immediately was retracted, the difference coming out of the following paycheck. I thought it was pretty unfair to suffer from someone else's mistake, but I guess it's not my position to say anyone is wrong.
Trent somehow managed to simultaneously disappear and be an asshole at the same time so once and for all i told him to get lost. I've been hanging out with elena and quasi a lot and that's been fun, but I've been getting pretty drunk at the same time, so I have flashes of conversation with him that I remember but not much memory of what led up to them. All in good fun, though.
I dyed my hair for halloween and a week later, i'm still getting comments [and compliments] on it, so I guess that's a good thing, but for real this is the last time I'm dying it. Not that I mind it so much, but just the way people react to it is kind of weird, like theyre so shocked I would dye it. Wow, i have hair. It was orangey red/brown but now it's burgundy. Oh dear god. People seem to like it a lot, though. I guess they just dont expect me to do something like that, and the fact that i didnt say anything about doing it, but just showed up with burgundy hair surprised them.
Nothing else is really new.I'm still disappointed by the lack of a stable here, but i'm going to try and bike to the state park at some point. It's not very far and during business hours on a weekday it shouldn't be very heavily trafficked. It should be fun.
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he's just not that into you [24 Aug 2009|02:10am]
[ mood | annoyed ]

A book that is simultaneously empowering and defeating. Both a boost and a blow to the ego. Frances sent it to me because for a brief time when it first came out, I thought I wanted to read it.
So I recently decided to pick it up and look through it.
Ugh!
I can't take too much of that bs at one time.

On an intro level, it's obvious. Duh. If someone isn't making an effort to pursue you, of course they're just not that into you. Been there, done that, and it only took a handful of rejections after I did the asking to figure that out myself, without some Sex and the City book to tell me that.
I do not really think it is always as simple as that once a deeper sort of relationship or friendship has developed.
Then again, I just started it, so I could be wrong. OMGZNO!

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:o( [23 Aug 2009|01:22am]
[ mood | sad ]

I want very much to pop my toes right now, but they hurt! Owwwwww. My ankle too. I'm glad I was holding on to the railing, otherwise I probably would have broken my neck. Damned steep slick steps and flipflops!

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big red [13 Aug 2009|01:30am]
I want to know when it was decided that I am, in fact, a redhead. Whaaaaaaaaaaaaat!
2 muddy rhinos - play in the slop.

i don't know what it is. [06 Jul 2009|08:38pm]
I think I miss him.
I watched a movie this afternoon and i spent some time crying thinking of him.
He's the only one i've ever seriously cried over so what's up with that?
I've cried more over him than I'd ever admit to, except for hanny who was the first. Back then, I didn't know any better and now I do.And I'm still crying.
Jesus.
I miss him. More than I thought I would.
Just being around him made me feel better.
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goddamn [02 Jul 2009|12:09am]
[ mood | weird ]

I think I'm a sap.

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I really love where I live. [28 Jun 2009|01:01am]
[ mood | ambitious ]

Lately, I've been going out and visiting the cemeteries. Despite all the hype, Bonaventure actually is a beautiful cemetery, and also close by are Forest Lawn and Greenwich Cemeteries.


I've gotten some fantastic pictures that I posted on facebook here. [add me if i'm not already a friend... friendwhoring yay]
It's just so beautiful out there, calming and relaxing. Actually, Forest Lawn cemetery is hiring pre-need sales reps and I bet I would be good at [and enjoy] that. Even if Forest Lawn wasn't my favorite of the three. With my background in courses about Death&Dying, I'm sure I'd be a shoe-in, so I guess I'm going to go up there on Tuesday all dressed up-ish and take my resume and apply for a job selling funeral plots. YAY! The dino says I'm too energetic, but I think it's not a matter of energy, it's a matter of understanding. And I am understanding, if not always sympathetic. And if I'm selling pre-need plots [as in, no one is dead yet, but they're planning for their funeral ahead of time], I don't really need to be the *most* sympathetic person.
I was having a bad day on friday and so I went to bonaventure as a stress reliever. It really worked. I wandered a little, took some pictures, and relaxed by the water until I had to go to work and I felt a good bit better, even if things were horrible once I got to work.

I'm still battling with myself over whether or not to go to greece. I have to ask anne to watch the animals if I go, and face the wrath of nick and vas for going [although vas was the one tormenting me about the cheap airfares] and being gone for 3 weeks. And after talking to ma about it, it wouldn't be so bad to go just for a few weeks to Zakynthos and meet up with like marie and peter and pops and george and just literally, TAKE A VACATION. Ma will probably want to know if I go [and meet up with me, most likely] but I'm thinking if I do go, I won't tell her. I don't want her to meet up with me over there [too stressful] and I just want to relax. Maybe George still has my bike and I can bike to Alykanas and take the ferry to Kefallonia, or to Macherado and see the black Madonna. Or down to Keri to enjoy the caves. My travels would probably be limited by my being alone, but not too bad, and if I got desperate for a traveling companion, I might be able to talk peter into traveling with me. Plus I just need to get the rest of my stuff that I left there.

I keep thinking I need to get started writing again, but I lose momentum so quickly. Not having any deadlines makes it difficult to put aside the nonsense things I spend my time doing [lately it's snood and coloring books... yea I know, what am I, three?] and just DO it. But there's something to be said for goofing off, too. Plus, like I said, I've been trying to get out and explore savannah more. Anne was saying she wants to start a girls' adventure club type thing and I would be all about that. It just needs to happen, is all. My next two stops on the discovery [re-discovery?] of Savannah are Laurel Grove Cemetery [on the west side] and Wormsloe Plantation. I really want to visit Skidaway Island State Park, but getting there on bike might be kind of tricky because I would have to bike Diamond Causeway, which is likely to be dangerous. We shall see, though!

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first [25 May 2009|12:39am]
[ mood | weird ]

So this is the first time he hasn't texted me a million times today, so I actually texted him. Does that mean I miss him?
But I've also been thinking of Trent. Whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy? I think it's because I worked part of the day with yardley, who shares the distinction of being from new orleans. I heard her chatting to a customer about being from louisiana and he said "metairie" and I lost my concentration thinking about him. Damn. If it weren't for all the things wrong with him, we would have been a good couple. Also, my friend andrew posted a quiz on facebook that said he would have been good for LSU, which of course again made me think of him. How could I not? I kind of do miss him when he was normal. Of course, when he wasn't, what was the point? None.
Today I made reference to the idea of going back to school to pursue a graduate degree in Sociology and write my thesis on what I've learned in the shop and it really does kind of appeal to me. What could I do with that? Not much, but I could become a sociology professor at some point, post-masters and phd. It could be interesting. I'm reading Special Topics in Calamity Physics by Marisha Pessl right now and it discusses the protagonist's father as a professor and the way he is, and I have to say I find it admirable. The "quirks" of a professor and academic lifestyle appeal to me, even if I failed to achieve my goal with the graduate linguistics program at UGA. Maybe I would be more suited to sociology than linguistics? I have far too many linguistic hangups. I can't even speak to mili in Spanish and she's chilean. I had fun going to venus with her on friday, though. I really liked venus, actually.


Anyway, I guess I should bathe the two kittens for the first time ever, so I'm going to head off. Things are just too confusing.

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don't know [23 May 2009|03:52pm]
[ mood | blah ]

I'm mixed up right now. I haven't been answering my phone. I went out with a girl from work and I liked it, but I felt pretty awkward all night. The bartender was cute and seemed nice, though. The kittens are old enough to go now [I think], but I haven't called back either person who wants one. Not because I want to keep them, but because I want to make sure they know how to use the litter box when they go. Also, my phone etiquette sucks. I'm TERRIBLE about calling back. Or answering. Which leads to all sorts of problems.
I kind of feel like I'm ready for a change. There's one more at work who needs to go, and of course I have to do it. I just... I don't know. I'm mixed up. And I feel bad because I've gained weight since I've been back, and I don't like it. I don't want to go to work. There's so much that I don't feel like doing. I'm not unhappy though, I don't think. I just want to take several days all to myself. I want a good solid week off where I can do whatever the hell I want, all day every day. I need to find more friends here too. I dreamt about a few of them. I'm just feeling very "blah" today. I don't want to go to work.
I'm tired of firing people, and I want to make more money. I miss the horses.

play in the slop.

gigantor [22 May 2009|12:30am]
[ mood | fatty ]

A woman three times my size came into the shop today. Breathing hard just from walking down river street, she collapsed in one of our chairs until she saw the sign "Crazy About Chocolate" and got up to look at the ice creams. Walking from her seat to the counter, she was panting. You could have fit three of me in the clothes she was wearing. Awful. I just wonder often how people let themselves get like that. I feel too big myself now, and I don't even think I look that bad.
I've started running, too, and taking Retsina with me, and that makes me feel a lot better about myself, but I know other habits will have to change, because I don't always want to be big. I'll never be waif-like, but I would like to be smaller.

I would hate to be a person who gets winded just walking down the street.

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... [17 May 2009|01:37am]
just because i know i shouldnt think about you doesn't mean i don.t
she says i'm right not to be serious yet and to let things happens as they may. don't push anything.


i'm so frustrated. why can't i just like someone and have it not be complicated?
1 muddy rhino - play in the slop.

[10 May 2009|09:10pm]

this picture cracks me up
1 muddy rhino - play in the slop.

kitten pictures with the new camera [07 May 2009|01:52pm]

i love this pic lol


the tortie is so cute

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kittens [27 Apr 2009|03:45pm]
my kittens:
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oh my [08 Apr 2009|09:12pm]
[ mood | surprised ]

She had her kittens today. I walked into the back room to check my email and her a mewling and look over to the closet and see two kittens, one orange and one tortoiseshell. Holy mother. . . At least it's only two. She keeps licking herself, so I hope there aren't more on the way. The two that are out are clean and dry like they've been around a couple hours, so that leads me to believe she's done birthing, but you never know.
I was all set for her spay [etc] for next week, too! I guess I'm going to call the vet and see what they want me to do, if I should bring the babies in thursday for a checkup when I do the spay. Oh man. He said I had 2 weeks to get the spay done! *sigh*
At least I know someone who wants one of them. And hopefully I can find people around the restaurant who want a kitten.
I totally didn't expect this two days ago. Although, I did get a little suspicious this afternoon when I saw how much time she was spending in the closet.
Oh boy.

4 muddy rhinos - play in the slop.

meow [06 Apr 2009|06:42pm]
[ mood | crazy ]

I may have just acquired a new cat. I was grumping on my way home about a bitch at work and when I got home, I opened the back door to let the dogs out and I see them chasing something black that streaked across the yard. I thought nothing of it, probably just a squirrel but they kept barking at it, so I went outside and my neighbors were on the porch and when I looked over, I saw a small dark furry in one of my trees. I walk over and my neighbors tell me this cat had gotten attacked by the pits that live a couple doors down and she'd been hanging around for a few days now. I put the dogs inside and burke and get my ladder and pull the cat out of the tree, and she just sort of stayed at my feet, so I picked her up and inspected her. She has some hair knocked off of her and some scabs and matted fur [she's got medium length fur], and a big old pregnant belly [which she hissed and spit at me when I touched, so she must be ready to pop soon. . .], but she seems healthy. I called my vet and got an appointment to have her checked out tomorrow. She seems pretty sweet so far, but she doesn't much care for the dogs or even Burke, although she didn't mind eating his food when I brought her in.
She's tiny! I don't think she's more than 6mos or 7lbs, and a tortoiseshell with fuzzy ears. She's really cute. I suppose I'm a little disappointed that I'm going to have to abort her kittens, but I know it's better than ending up with 7 cats [and having to spay/neuter them all] and having to find homes for them. I wouldn't mind keeping her, but it's a little weird/funny, considering that JUST TODAY I was talking about how I love Burke but I didn't think I'd want to get another cat after him. I can't wait to hear what mom says about it. haha This is what I get for being an animal person! I get to spend my paycheck on an animal I didn't seek out. But I'm okay with that, I guess. I like her so far. She's definitely a pretty cat. I would take better pictures but my idiot camera is stuck on zoom and razrs have awful cameras.


She's so delicate!

And name suggestions are more than welcome. The vet's office just put her on the books as "stray" but I was thinking something stupid like "Turtle". I haven't really thought about that yet.

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why not [04 Apr 2009|01:29pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]

I talked to Mom, I got my check from brad, and today I plan to check the balance in my account to be sure it cleared [not that I'm really concerned], then text brad to say thank you. It's good. I feel better being rid of the things. I tried to text trent and ask how his move went, being a NICE person and wanting not to leave on a bad note with him, but he was an ass, saying he didn't leave yet because he was "fucking all night", which led to an argument, I guess, which culminated in me saying I hope he has a nice life and that his next girlfriend is as sweet to him as he's been to me. So I'm through with that. He just has way too many issues. I mean, really, what sensible person would rather sit there and dirty text INSTEAD OF going to visit the person with whom he might otherwise be having SEX? And why is he growing attached to me when he's moving 14hours away when he wanted to break it off when I moved only four? Ridiculous.
But I think I might just enjoy the single life. I get hugs and kisses from the guys at work and I have my toys, so why do I need to complicate my life over a guy right now? I need to get my act together and go to the farm on norwood to check it out and also I think I am going to get into the paralegal thing. I talked to Mom about the courses at Armstrong this summer, the one on Criminal Practice and Procedures, which is one night a week, for eight weeks for only 135$, so I think I'm going to do that. Sign up for the course and start looking for legal jobs. I kind of like real estate, too, but I can't do anything there unless I get a car. I really love looking on realtor.com at houses. When I talked to mom, I mentioned eventually [once I get a better paying job or a car] buying another house and renting out this one. She thought it wasn't a bad idea. Property is always a good investment, and especially since I will always be able to rent my house for almost twice what my mortgage is. . . Plus I think Savannah is a city that is on the grow.
In the meantime, though, I like my little house. I'll like it better once I sort through my furniture and sell the stuff I don't need and buy new/used furniture, but I do like it. It's comfortable. My only woe is that I want to create a social life for myself here, outside of work. But if I start riding again, that will help.
I was chastised the other day by carlos for not speaking to him in spanish. I guess that is pretty bad. Why learn all these languages if I don't use them? I studied for 7 years, but I don't bother to talk to people with it. Blah.

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se thelo [28 Mar 2009|02:28am]
Se thelo ['I want you']

The first time that I saw you
I didn't know just what to do,
Suddenly I heard you say
That you wanted me to stay

Mono me sena [Only with you]
Only for your eyes
Se thelo gia mena [I want you for myself]
I wanna hear you say "I love you"
I wanna hear you say "I do"

Se thelo, se thelo, I wanna know [I want you, I want you]
Ki esy me thelis kai to xero [And you want me and I know it]
Why can't it be just you and me
For ever and ever
Se thelo, se thelo, I wanna know [I want you, I want you]
Ki esy me thelis kai to xero [And you want me and I know it]
Why can't it be just you and me
Together through eternity

When I look into your eyes
I feel like I'm in paradise,
Always when I think of you
I know what your love can do

Mono me sena [Only with you]
Only for your eyes
Se thelo gia mena [I want you for myself]
I wanna hear you say "I love you"
I wanna hear you say "I do"

Se thelo, se thelo, I wanna know [I want you, I want you]
Ki esy me thelis kai to xero [And you want me and I know it]
Why can't it be just you and me
For ever and ever
Se thelo, se thelo, I wanna know [I want you, I want you]
Ki esy me thelis kai to xero [And you want me and I know it]
Why can't it be just you and me
Together through eternity

The first time that I saw you
I didn't know just what to do,
Suddenly I heard you say
That you wanted me to stay
play in the slop.

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